Imma Point Countin'

I thought this would be easier...

2010-07-30T17:44:00.000-07:00

For those of you watching So You Think You Can Dance, they keep talking about this routine that they have posted for anyone to try... and try I did. So far, it's not going well. Then again, I'm not a dancer (I'm not even remotely in shape) and I've only tried the routine a few times. I'm actually going to keep trying it... it's kinda sad when you realize just how dancing-challenged you really are... ~pout~

Give it a shot - did you find it as challenging as I did???

Bubble Bubble Bubble

2010-07-28T11:36:00.000-07:00

I'm still hanging around.

2010-07-24T04:24:00.000-07:00

Hey all, just a super quick post to say hello to everyone!
Also, thanks so much for all the positive comments about my pictures - I thought those bubble ones I snapped were pretty cool and wanted to share - I'm surprised how well they actually turned out! Thanks Mom for blowing the most perfect bubbles! ~winks~

Not much is new, I'm having a difficult time at work lately - but that's alright, the clock is ticking and soon I will be on my way to GA. I can't wait, I'm hoping to hear from them this coming week to set up my "interview" appointment. Eek.

Weight is okay.. I guess. I haven't been doing very well keeping on track - 209lbs. Meh. I'll take it.

I've still been reading all of your blogs, and commenting if I have something interesting to say, heh. So I'm still around, just having a difficult time blogging for some reason.

More Photos

2010-07-23T04:20:00.001-07:00

P.S. Sneaky Monkey - I Love you, so very much.

Pretty Things Indeed

2010-07-21T18:37:00.000-07:00

Good evening! This post is brought to you in secret by your local area Monkey. Becca left herself logged into Blogger on my iPad back in May, and I'd forgotten all about it until now. I was reading her blog, which she seems to think I don't do, when I ran across one of her favorite tags: pretty things.

So, what better pretty thing to post, than my beautiful fiancé? Without further ado, I present to you, my favorite picture of her. Taken a year before at a pet store with the cutest little dog that just absolutely loved her to death.

This post is from my Monkey's iPad, because I forgot I left it logged in to my Blogger account, and now he's going to take advantage of that!

Location:Atlanta, GA

The Weekend . . .

2010-07-18T15:22:00.000-07:00

Hey All, just dropping in to quickly leave some photos.

Sorry for the lack of posts, I just haven't been feeling the whole Blogging thing lately. I am still checking out your blogs though, and posting where I can!

IS PEACHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-14T16:01:00.000-07:00

Our paperwork was approved today - I'M MOVING TO GA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beachy

2010-07-13T03:32:00.000-07:00

She went to the beach and never returned . . .

. . . Ha! I wish. Weighed in at 208.0lbs today.

Just my Tracker

2010-07-03T03:33:00.000-07:00

Just stopping in quick to post my pnt tracker, and I'm off. Looking to leave around 7am this morning for my parents. Hooking up with the family, and hopefully spending the day at the beach!

Have a great sunny weekend all!

Happy B-Day Canada!

2010-07-01T06:14:00.001-07:00

Well, I'm off work today, so we'll see how I do on pnts and exercise. I couldn't seem to talk myself into doing any exercising yesterday, and ended up eating way too much fruit.. I couldn't help it!!! It was so yummy... and juicy... and mmmmm. So, pnts over. Meh.

Did anyone watch So You Think You Can Dance last night? Best performance of the night, hands down, no freaking questions asked was Alex and Twitch. I can't believe how talented Alex is... he's just unbelievable. I wouldn't have believed he could do a HipHop routine, except I saw it with my own two eyeballz and it was crazzzzzzzzzzzy good. I tried to find a clip of the dance on YouTube, but couldn't find anything. Probably cause it just happened last night. I just love this show, it's so great to see such professionals, who honestly just LOVE dancing, and have mad crazy skillz.

Dance: Hip-Hop
Choreographer: Tabitha and Napoleon D’umo
Song: “Outta Your Mind" by Lil Jon and LMfAO
All-Star Partner: Twitch Boss

Picture Day!

2010-06-30T04:02:00.000-07:00

On Pnts again!!!! I'm on a freaking roll. Here's hoping I keep going in the right direction, and then maybe, just maybe I'll end up seeing a NEW lower number next week.

Yesterday I was click, click, clickin' my camera - so I have a few pictures to share with you (for once, it's been awhile!)

I arrived at work, and the sky was so blue.. and the sun was shinning so bright... it was very difficult to go inside the building, instead of driving away. This shot was snapped while I parked my car.

Ran out and grabbed a Subway Sub for lunch, since I won that gift card the other day at work, I still had enough on the card for one more sub... it was yum.

Watermelon - thanks to all those lovelies who posted photos of THEIR watermelon, when I went shopping last night I picked some up for myself. Sweet and juicy, yumyum.

Last, but certainly not least, was my low-fat fruit parfait! Sooooooooo good. I used low fat Coolwhip, blueberries, strawberries and topped it with 1 of those Lifestyle cookies I still had in the cabinet. Very Good. I have one cookie left, so I'll probably whip up another for tonight.

Stalled Out

2010-06-29T04:09:00.000-07:00

Did good yesterday, stayed on pnts, and exercised while watching TV.

Weighed-in this morning, back to 210lbs after last weeks eating disaster where I went MIA and fell so far off the wagon. Again I'm in the position to keep moving in the right direction, we'll see how this coming weekend goes - hoping to make it to the beach for some sun and swimming.

Anyone else have plans this weekend?

Just another Monday

2010-06-28T04:04:00.001-07:00

It's Monday again, and I don't really have anything planned. Work today, obviously. It's only 7am and already I'm trying to hype myself up for a workout tonight. "Walk Walk Walk Walk".
Again, did alright with pnts yesterday, no exercise though - but I was more active. Played some Frisbee with my neighbours dog for a little bit, went mini golfing with my friend - which was fun! And did some lazy version of WATP during commercials while I watched TV at night.

Monkey and I have been checking out placed in the Atlanta area to purchase down the road. We wanted to have a better idea of what's out there - costs, and also what we would both be interested in living in. Which, if you know me, has complicated my choices - cause I like so many! The city Townhouses are so precious and homey. The Lofts are modern chic. The sky-rise window condos are breathtaking! How is a person supposed to decide?!?

I'm sure the key is for me to go, and look at these places in person. I'm one of those people who goes with a gut feeling when it comes to homes/cars, etc. If I don't feel the need to be there, to purchase that space, then it's probably not right. I've done that for my 1st condo, my apt now, and for my vehicle - and have never regretted any of them.

It is exciting to be shopping with Monkey for a home . . . one could even go so far as to say it's as good as a dream.

= )

Shoo Rain, Shoo.

2010-06-27T08:13:00.001-07:00

I'm hoping it doesn't rain today, a friend and I are supposed to be going mini-golfing today, but not if it pours out! So cross your fingers that the rain stays away, and the sun breaks through.

Not much to talk about really, I did okay yesterday with pnts - a little over. But the thing that killed me was the fact that I did zero exercise, but worse than that? I did next to nothing the entire day. I cleaned up my apt, did a bit of laundry, and watched great amounts of TV and movies. Lazy. Because of that, the scale wasn't too pleased with my efforts this morning, and made that perfectly clear.

Hopefully, today I will be on pnts, and maybe even be a little more active - here's hoping.

Feeling the Burn . . .

2010-06-26T05:47:00.000-07:00

I was on pnts yesterday, yay!!!! My day was super strange for eating, I had a pile of sugar while I was at work, but kept it light when I got home and even got up, and did some serious WATP's. I'm talking sweaty, burning muscles serious. Anyway, my butt is sore this morning, the muscles are really tight. I'm not sure how to avoid straining my muscles b/c I already do the warm-up, cool-down and stretches. Maybe it's just cause I'm not use to it? Here's hoping.

Does anyone else get charley-horses after they have worked out?

I get them during the night, once I'm relaxed in bed. Hate it.

I still have not managed to try a morning workout, sticking with after work for now. That's when I have the most free time, so I've been forcing myself up off that couch in the hopes of even accomplishing a small 15 minutes.

Erica @ Fashion Meets Food: I agree with you, somehow (suggestions people???) you have to learn to recognize why you do it, and how to avoid the situation, or how to deal with it better. The thing is, I guess I just allow it to happen... I know I shouldn't, I know what's happening.. but in that moment the force driving me to eat is much stronger then the other voices screaming stop!

GoingBlue: I'm a freak. Seriously. Those saltines and peanut butter would be gone in one or two sittings. I already do as you suggested usually - I keep a very minimal amount of food in my apt. (the family pokes fun at me all the time, cause my fridge is almost empty). I generally refuse to keep anything around that I would binge on: Cookies, crackers, spreads (I will resort to eating peanut butter with a spoon), chips, etc. For awhile, I wouldn't even have bread in the house - cause I've been known to binge on that too. I've gotten it all back under control somewhat. It's crazy, I know. Your suggestion about keeping food around that you HAVE to prepare to eat is a good one - I absolutely agree with that, and am practicing it again now that I'm back on the wagon.

= )

Damn the Cookie!

2010-06-25T04:21:00.000-07:00

I was doing just fine yesterday, staying perfectly on pnts.

I even exercised, sure it was only for 20 minutes, but it was certainly better than nothing and I broke quite the sweat - Leslie Sansone can be very brutal at times . . .

So, I'm all done for the evening, I even have like 6pnts left, so I think 'Hey, how about a cookie?'. It was all downhill from there, I ate and ate and ate until finally I was able to stop with only 5 cookies left in the box. I told Monkey what I had done, and he simply asked "why do you do that to yourself.." work so hard, and then eat like a maniac.

Answer: No freaking idea, really.

Grr. I really need to figure out the reason for this pattern, otherwise, how am I gunna stop it?

1st Day Back, Doin' Okay

2010-06-24T04:04:00.001-07:00

Yesterday's pnt countin' was okay, I stayed on track, and even got in some exercise. I'm not gunna lie, it's been awhile since I did Walk Away the Pounds - and it felt a little similar to torture last night. The last few minutes I was dragging myself through the moves. In the evenings I've been considering putting in a quick workout in the mornings, before my shower, to boost myself for the day. But I'm finding it very difficult to even think of doing it in the morning, when I'm actually in the moment.

Do you working peeps exercise in the morning, or evening?

MIA

2010-06-23T16:02:00.000-07:00

I apologize that I've been MIA lately.

I was away at my Sisters for the weekend, and went so far off track I just didn't feel like writing. There was slushy sugary drinks, restaurant food, chips and burgers, it was delicious! I did have a blast visiting with my Lil' Sis at her lovely home, I'm so proud of her. Also caught up with two good friends of mine, did some shopping, found some deals, chatted lots.

I'm back now, probably, and will try to get caught up with what's going on with everyone. I'm also attempting to get back on track, as of today. Yay me. ~makes a face~

New layout for the Blog, not sure if I love it, or what. So I might end up changing it again.

Super happy - It's FRIDAY!

2010-06-18T15:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's pnt countin' was MUCH better. No cookies left to binge on. I only had 1 hot dog bun left, so no scarfing there either. I even managed to get outside for a little walk, it sucked. I have been avoiding going for a walk since Monkey left, it's so lonely! Going walking with him looking for all those Geocaches was so much fun, just being outside, chatting with him, whatever. All by my lonesome sucks horribly. It was very sad, the further I walked, the more lonely I became. So I just decided to come home after once around the block.

I'm hoping to be one of the big Lotto Winners tonight!!!!! 45 prizes of $1 Million and 1 prize of $50 Million - common $50 MILLION!!! I have a good feeling about this. Send me good vibes people, cause I already have a great plan on how I'm spending $50 Million dollars in my lifetime!

I had a bunch of left overs from the Sweet Potato Burrito, so I made a quesadilla out of it. I actually liked this version better, not sure why - cause it's the same ingredients. Next time I make it though, I think I'll always transform it into a Sweet Potato Quesadilla. Heh.

Spicy!!!

2010-06-17T15:19:00.000-07:00

I'm late making my post, ended up chatting with Monkey on the phone this morning and it ate up most of my "free" time. So, I couldn't post until I got home. (Granted, I had lots of time to do posting from work, I just don't like to log onto Blogger there... just in case, ya know?)

Anyway, yesterday was great, I made Sweet Pot ato Burritos. They were delicious, except I really need to measure my spices properly (oh, and labelling them correctly would have helped). Then, when I was doing just fine with pnts - I screwed the pooch. I ate TEN (count em') TEN cookies, the entire rest of the box. I couldn't help it. Or rather, I could have.. but didn't.. and kept eating.

I've also gotten into the horrible habit of eating hot dog buns. They are so soft and doughy, I can't seem to stop myself! I'm sick. Help. Grrrrr.

I'm still on track so far today, we'll see what happens between now (6:30pm) and bed. I need to tap into some serious self control. Anyone have some to spare?

Whitney, at Getting Healthy: I have seen P.S. I Love You, and cried through the entire thing. I was a messy sopping mess by the end, it was much better then I had expected.

Erica, at Fashion Meets Food: Thanks Sugar! I'm trying.... and trying.

Happy Fun Pants, at Smaller Fun Pants: ...absolutely wonderful, Yes.

Krista, at Running Through Life: "Your heart feels like it compresses all of a sudden then almost explodes in your chest." Couldn't put it any better myself.

Scattered Showers, Again? Boo.

2010-06-16T04:00:00.000-07:00

Did good last night, even with the massive meal of food I had for dinner - it was soooooooooo good. I made Turkey Meatballs the other day, and they were fantastic. Yum. I'm really into spaghetti sauce lately, it's pretty low in pnts, and it's so flavourful.

Cleaned my apartment last night, almost 30 minutes of vacuuming trying to get in all the corners and cleaning off the baseboards. I have this minor fear of spiders, and whenever I see a black speck on the floor for a moment panic sets in. I watch nervously to see if it moves, when nothing happens I prompt it to move by blowing air on the spot, or leaning down closer to get a better look. I'd say 9/10 it's never a spider.... but that still leaves 1/10..... .... ew. So, anyway, I made sure there were no little spots on the floor that would catch my attention. Plus, it didn't hurt that my landlord was coming over to pick up rent - and she's always so surprised at how clean and tidy I am. ~Smiles~

On a completely unrelated topic, I thought of this last night.

Have you ever had those moments where you are so completely overwhelmed by the way you feel about someone else?

It happens to me from time to time. I was sitting, watching TV last night (there was nothing on, I hate summer TV) and this feeling of blissful love just like... blanketed me. I just thought about how much I love Monkey, from tiny moments, to larger ones. It's the strangest and most perfect feeling in the world. (Hokey I know, but honest...) To know you love someone in that way, and to know, with 100% certainty, that they love you in return . . .

I'm still here...

2010-06-15T04:19:00.000-07:00

Krista, miss.krista: Thanks for the encouragement. I've never used the online WW, I've heard mixed things. I just do the pnt counting myself using WW Books, and I weigh-in each week officially myself here at home.

Erica, Fashion Meets Food: You're so sweet, and thanks for the encouragement also! I'm trying to get back into the regular mindset. Hopefully this week will be better.

Not much new to write about, I see the sun through my mini blinds this morning, which is indeed a nice change after three solid days of humid grey. I was over in pnts yesterday, as you can see. But I actually am down in weight, I managed to somewhat control my weekend eating. So I weighed in at 210.8lbs (-1.2lbs) this morning. Yay. Back to the normal.

I've been stuck between 210 and 212 for months, and months. Bleh.

+20 pnts, Boo

2010-06-12T05:30:00.000-07:00

Shame. Bad night, lonely night. I miss Monkey.

Quick

2010-06-11T03:44:00.000-07:00

I'm not much in the mood to blog this morning, so a quick post of my food log is pretty much it! Hope everyone has a fantastic FRIDAY!

People are s-m-r-t

2010-06-10T19:24:00.000-07:00

The Bad: You're drinking and driving.

Worse: You're drinking WHILE driving.

Seriously?: You're out driving, drinking, and the cops pull you over. You think that tossing the half full bottle out the window will prevent you from getting a ticket . . .

. . . true story.

Doin' Good - So far.

2010-06-10T04:06:00.000-07:00

My pnts are doing pretty good since the weekend, I'm keeping pretty much on track with everything, and feeling good about it. Got another 1 Mile - Walk Away the Pounds in last night. It's only a 15 minute workout, but I'm telling myself that it's way better then doing nothing at all. Plus, when I say it's only 15 minutes, it's 15 minutes of good working out, sweat and all.

Erica, over at Fashion Meets Food: I was pretty excited that Rachael & Finn got together - although I thought it was a bit strange that Rachael stayed to watch her ex's performance. He is pretty cute, but he's so sweet... like, boyishly sweet that you could kinda drop kick. I think I like what's his name better - the bad boy. Okay, the part about Rachael's Mom adopting the baby - I was like WHA?!? I was very confused by that ending, and since when could you just walk into a hospital and shop babies? Or do you think it was preplanned? Cause it didn't sound it.

Blossom, over at I'm Blossoming: John Stamos?? Really? Wow. Yeah, I figured they wouldn't just get them completely back together right away - she did kinda pull away during the kiss. You're right though, they didn't offically get back together. I guess what I meant to say was that they stopped lying to eachother (or Will did at least) and admitted that he still wanted a relationship.

I LOVE Jane Lynch as Sue Sylvester. I think she is doing an amazing job, and makes me laugh every freakin episode. She was just as funny on Two and a Half Men, playing a very similar character. I am not a fan of Will's curly hair, and think it's just hilarious that Sue points it out constantly and harasses him about it.

How do you all feel about this character?

Glee-tastic!

2010-06-09T03:58:00.000-07:00

Did great yesterday for pnts and exercise, I'm finally getting a little in and feeling better about it. I had a horrible day at work, so last night was pretty rough, but I managed not to bosh my entire efforts for the day just because I was feeling miserable.

Well, hopefully no one missed last nights seasonal finale of Glee - cause it was great! I really liked it, and loved the music, as per normal. I have no idea where they are going to go from here. Since Emma and Will got together, Rachel and Finn are together again, Quinn had her baby, etc. etc. Where does a show go once they have sorta wrapped everything up? Not sure if I'll like the next season or not, we'll see what the writers come up with.

Has anyone purchased the Glee Soundtrack? My Mom bought it, and last time I was visiting we listed to it - it's pretty damn wicked. Check it out if you haven't already.

Quick & Easy

2010-06-08T04:13:00.000-07:00

* Did alright yesterday, but the days before were horrible, unfortunately. I will admit that I ate an entire bag of chips... it was a horrible idea, but it was like I was going crazy with the craving for chips. Bah, next time I should just get chips when I first crave them and have a few. (Been craving those things since before Monkey was here for the visit...) Anyway, I'm up to 212lbs today (+2). Bleh. My own fault.

* Quick shot of one of the Peacocks at the park who was showing off the entire time I was there. He was a little far away, so this was the closest shot I could get of him.

* The pond at the park was very pretty with the clouds reflecting in the surface, never mind one of the Canadian Geese that seriously considered attacking me, if only for a moment.

Photos, That's All

2010-06-07T12:31:00.000-07:00

* It's a bright, sunny day out. I went for a small, light walk to enjoy it. Not feeling the best today, totally stayed home from work, finally I'm starting to feel better.

* The Peonies in my neighbours garden finally bloomed, and they are as pretty as I imagined they would be. These flowers always remind me of my Oma.

This isn't what I wanted to see...

2010-06-06T05:44:00.000-07:00

So, my friend and I went to the theater yesterday to see Sex and the City 2. My friend had free movie vouchers, for the cinema we normally don't go to, but free is great, and she was wicked and gave me one - free movie!

We arrived too early, and they were still cleaning it from the previous movie, so we had to wait. There were little tables set up off to the side, so we sat there and read the magazines they provide. Eventually, one of the peeps who worked there stopped at our table and was like: "Are you here to see a movie?" (I thought this went without saying... ) So we tell her we're here to see Sex and the City 2. She's like: "Oh, are you guys over 18yrs?" I swear, the look on my face must have been priceless - I just stared at her, and then my friend and replied. "Are you being serious?" She was, she was being serious and was like "I have to make sure..." Really? I'm almost 30. Anyway, it was truly bizarre.

So, we get up and walk over to the theaters, we see the cinema #3 sign, but no real sign for cinema #2, but there is a door. So I'm like - is this our cinema? And my friend is like "looks like it." So in we go, sit down and wait for our movie to start. As we're sitting there, we're noticing some people entering who don't really appear to be 18yrs old.. were they not asked?? Either way, we continue to wait, and wait. And finally the movie starts up and we're having a pretty bad feeling about it.

To cut a very long story short, Katherine Heigl showed up on our screen.... we were in the wrong cinema, watching Killers. Anyway, it was too late by the time we realized, so we decided to just watch the movie - it sucked. Not hardcore or anything, but it's not something I would recommend someone go and see.

... at least we didn't pay for our tickets?

Errrrr....

2010-06-05T08:43:00.000-07:00

It was bad, I'm not even certain I counted everything right, or if I forgot something during my manic binging. I dunno exactly what went wrong, I feel like I'm ravenous though. I think it's my stress level, there's a lot going on - and my mind is just swirling with stuff lately. It's an excuse, I knew I should have stopped eating.. bad. 14+pnts over count. ~makes a face~ Oops.

I wasn't going to bother posting, because I wasn't entirely sure if the count was even correct.. and lets face it.. who wants to post how poorly they have been doing. But then I thought, what the hell. It's done and over with - it happened, and not posting it doesn't make it NOT true. ~Shrugs~ So there you have it, my very pathetic control over yesterdays eating. This morning hasn't been much better - I'll try to pull back on the reins for the rest of the day.

I hurt myself yesterday, slipped in the tub and jarred my shoulder/arm pretty bad. I'm gobbling down some Advil. Planning on going to the movies with a friend today - Sex and the City 2. Hope it's okay.

Happy Birthday Monkey!

2010-06-04T04:11:00.001-07:00

It's my Monkey's Birthday today!!! I hope he has a greatly fantastical day.

I'm off on my pnts again, but it's not my fault! (Yes it is, it so is.) The problem is because I went grocery shopping, and now I have super yummy things waiting to be eaten in my fridge. Yummy things that include cookies - Peak Freans ~ Lifestyle Selections. They are so yum - I got two flavours: Blueberry Brown Sugar with Flax and Vanilla Bean Latte - sooooooo good. I can't stop eating the stupid things. And they are a 1pnt each. I was kinda hoping when I bought them that it would be like 3 cookies for one pnt. Clearly, I was wishful thinking, imagining myself with piles of cookies and gobbling them down like the Cookie Monster. Sad, but true. So - if you check out my pnt counts - you can see I had 12 cookies yesterday.. no control. None.

My weigh-in this Tuesday is not going to be pleasant if I keep this up. And still no exercise. Boo.

Is anyone watching So you think you can Dance? I love that freaking show. Every time I watch it the people make me so happy and inspired. It's so wonderful that they love to dance so much, that they are so very passionate about what they do. I wish I had more of that feeling in my life. When they get so happy that they cry on the show, they freaking make me cry! I dunno, it's just so beautiful. The way some of them can dance/move is freakin off the wall crazy. I love it. It's so interesting to watch.

It's Almost Friday....

2010-06-03T04:17:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I went over, again. I got into a serious Funk after work, had a lot of stuff on my mind and got into a stupid argument with Monkey to boot. Needless to say, I decided to turn to some snacking to keep my mind occupied and my tummy full. Oh well, today I get to start fresh again with my pnts, so we'll see how it goes.

I work in Customer Service. I have clients calling all the time to complain about this and that, ragging about things that make no sense. Clients who act as though my soul job is to sit there and wait for their single call, as if they are the only ones in the universe, and even though they waited until the LAST possible second to ask for something - I should be all over it. I have clients who talk to me as though they are Kings/Queens, and I am the dirt below their feet. The reason I tell you all of this is not to complain - I'm simply stating fact.

Because of my job, and the people I deal with, I try to keep that in mind when I call somewhere and expect customer service. I try to be patient, understanding. I still want to be helped, but I understand I'm not the only one left on the planet. I expect good customer service, but I understand mistakes are made, and can be fixed. I rarely, if ever, raise my voice - even if I am becoming increasingly frustrated with the person on the other end of the phone. The only exception to all of this is if you are a bullshitter, or you're rude. Then I am not so understanding, or patient. But I still don't yell.

Some of my co-workers are not this way. It's almost like b/c people call into the office to treat them like crap, they feel they owe the same to others when they are out at a restaurant, shopping, calling a company for customer service, etc. They are rude, demanding and have zero tolerance for mistakes. They want something for nothing, and get upset and rude when they don't get what they want.

I listen to it, and honestly.. just cannot believe my ears. I've seen these same people break down in tears at their desks, upset because they've made a mistake on a clients file. I've seen them offended because of the way someone speaks to them, stressed because of the work loads on their desk and wishing they could get a break.

Am I crazy? Does nobody believe in the 3-Fold Rule?

Whatever energy a person puts out into the world,
be it positive or negative,
will be returned to that person three times.

June Begins!

2010-06-02T04:21:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was an okay day, nothing eventful happened except that I FINALLY went grocery shopping - which you can always tell from my food tracking b/c it's suddenly filled with things that I wasn't eating regularly. I tend to get a tad bit carried away when I finally decide to replenish my fridge. I just can't help it, everything looks so yummy! For example, I was MORE than full after my dinner, but those grapes were just so plump and juicy looking.. I had to have a bowl.. so, as a result I'm 3pnts over. No biggie.

I tried out a new recipe last night, got the idea from a commercial for Philadelphia Cream Cheese - you know, the ones with the angels? I've tried the pesto one in the past, which was great. This one was using your fav spaghetti sauce, heat up chicken and veg - add sauce and stir in a table spoon or so of cream cheese and then add your cooked pasta. It was pretty good, I used broc and cauliflower with 1 shallot. I would definitely make this dish again.

Still no exercise for me, I just can't seem to motivate myself to get it done. I guess that without Monkey here, going for a walk just doesn't seem as fun... all alone, by myself... bleh. I'm in an exercise funk.

Feels good to be On Track!

2010-06-01T04:37:00.000-07:00

I'm back on track! Yay! My weight last week (after the vacation/visit) was way high - 213lbs. Stepped on the scale and I'm down to: 210.2lbs this week - WHEW! I feel better. I worked hard during the week to stay on pnts, and it seems that it worked - even with my mess ups this past weekend. I'm going to work at keeping on-top of my pnts this week as well, hoping to see under 210 next week.

Anyway, not much is new here. Same old, same old. I need to take my car in to get fixed - again. The entire steering wheel shakes when I brake, it's bad, like.. hard to hold onto the wheel sometimes. Heh. I'm bad for not taking it in sooner - but I just HAD it in and the car cost me $$. I hate spending so much all at once.

Looks like rain for the next few days here - which is fine since we were spoiled for almost two weeks with bright, sunny, warm weather. I'm sure the plants/crops, etc could use some good days of raining. Okay, now I've slipped into super boring - I'm gunna stop talking now!

Soooo... yeah.

2010-05-31T14:34:00.000-07:00

Bad weekend, bad bad. I lost track of everything I ate, in a blur of snacking and munching. Tomorrow will tell how poorly I actually did. Until Friday, the scale was lookin pretty good for my scheduled upcoming Tuesday weigh-in. However, after the weekend I'm just hoping I don't gain.

I had a good weekend visiting wise though. Hung out with Family, did lots of talking, game playing, and sun soaking. The weather was amazing, and I hung out in those warm rays for most of the time. Tried out my Dad's new four wheeler, a sharp cherry red colour. It was pretty cool, been awhile since I drove one - I can't believe I used to drive them when I was a kid, cause after I got off I couldn't believe how sore my thumb was from pushing the throttle. Is it possible to become weaker than when you were a kid??? Cause I think I'm there.

Anyway, I'm attempting to get BACK-back on track today. So far, not too bad. We'll see how I do at the end of the day tomorrow when I post the tracking. Fingers crossed, I keep to together and don't make another run for a McFlurry like last night. Bad.

2 Day Challenge Begins

2010-05-29T04:32:00.000-07:00

I'm up early this morning because lets face it, my body refuses to sleep in on it's own.. and I find it far too much of a hassle to keep forcing myself back to sleep. I was actually wide awake at 6am, but stayed put in those cozy sheets until 7pm, when I lost the battle.

It's fine, because I'm just going to get ready and head out that door to go visit family for the weekend - returning tomorrow. I'm really going to try... and stay... on pnts... really. Grrrr. I dunno why I release all control when it comes to my eating habits while being "Up Home" as we call it. I can literally feel my control slipping away as a make the 2hr drive and by the time I arrive, all I can think about is food. I'm starting to wonder if it's just routine. If when I was a kid, and we'd make that same drive, arrive and there would be all sorts of homemade pies, meals, potato salad... oh.. the potato salad... I think I'm like a dog who hears a bell and then associates that with doing something else - does that even make sense? I'll move on now.

Teale asked me about my move to the US, so I thought I'd write a bit here so everyone would know and I wouldn't have to explain it later. ~winks~ My Monkey lives in GA, and I am a Canadian. We've applied for the Fiance Visa for me to move Down South. We have no idea how long it will take really, since we're completely at the mercy of the government(s). The average they say is a 6 - 9 month process. We're in month 5 right now and still waiting, so we'll see. Anyway, that's the short version of the story.

Yipee - Friday!

2010-05-28T04:09:00.000-07:00

Whew, am I ever glad that it's Friday, finally. Work has been very busy, and stressful due to co-worker drama, gotta love it. ~eye roll~ Plus I've been trying to let go of the sad/heavy weight of not having Monkey around this week.. each day the feeling softens a little, but it just never seems to go away. I think what also makes it hard is that everyone at work knows I'm planning the move from Canada to the US, which makes them ask about it every single day. They use it as small talk, in place of the weather, the kind you never really listen to the answers.. you just talk, you know? Little do they know that each time they do it, it's a little like being stabbed with a red hot needle. (I exaggerate, it doesn't feel red hot.. ~winks~)

ANYWAY, I did good again yesterday. On pnts! Yayyayayaya!! Tonight I'm hoping to continue the trend, and then hopefully I can beat down my crazy eating when I go visit my parents this weekend. I need to bring my weight back to normal after the week Monkey and I enjoyed eating whatever I wanted. It was a delicious week. Heh.

Last night I had some more of my Quiche, with a side spinach salad. I put too much dressing on though.. boo. I was actually prepared to put more on, but then I decided to mix it first.. good thing! I guess I should be more careful next time, it was pretty yummy anyway though.

Hope everyone reading is having a fab day, and that it's sunny wherever you are.

Common Week - End

2010-05-27T04:05:00.000-07:00

Still on pnts, doing alright I think. I made some of my homemade quiche last night, which I think turned out great, as usual. It's so simple to make, and so yum. I added spinach, bacon, cheese, onions, carrots and peas into these ones! Each time I've made something different, I don't think I've made the same quiche twice yet. Anyway, had two small slices last night and it tasted fab.

Teale commented on my post from yesterday, and inquired if ever end up feeling hungry after the few things I sometimes eat each day, and I wanted to answer her here. Yes, sometimes I am hungry - but most of those times I think it's mostly in my head. I have tried eating in many different ways over the years: Eating breakfast, not eating breakfast, eating a bunch of small meals, eating only a few, drinking tons of water, etc. etc. This routine I find works best for me.

I tried eating in the mornings, but that seemed to kick my body into a feeding frenzy all day long. I would eat before I left for work, and by the time I arrived, I was ravenous. Instead I now grab myself a coffee on the way to work, and usually eat nothing until noon or 1pm when lunch is. Sometimes there are a few pangs of hunger - but I don't feel out of control. Plus, when I'm busy working I find it so much easier to keep on track with eating.

The second reason I eat the way I do is b/c I find smaller meals just don't do it for me. I believe there are all kinds of eating additions/habits out there. One of mind is the need to feel full. At dinner time, if I can't have a heavy enough meal my cravings kick into overdrive, and all I want is to snack... the entire night.. until I get that heavy weight of fullness in my stomach. I have no idea why I need this, but it has been a "need/want" that I haven't been able to shake.

Know what's funny? As I read this post.. I'm picturing myself as a crazed Piranha. Heh.

Anyway, thanks for the topic Teale!

Running Late . . .

2010-05-26T04:10:00.000-07:00

I feel like I'm running a little late this morning, so I'm going to keep my post short. I was perfectly on pnts yesterday - eating exactly 27pnts for the day. It was a bit of a struggle at night, I was really bummed about Monkey, but forced myself to stop eating. No exercise, it was hot out and I just didn't feel like going for a walk - plus my bad mood. I know they are excuses, but too bad. I'm going to just focus on the small things first.

Glee and Parenthood were on last night, and both did not disappoint!

Still feeling like crap since Monkey left, everything is empty, quiet and lonely.

Well, that about wraps up my post for today, I will hopefully have something more exciting to talk about tomorrow. Hope everyone is doing well.

Back to Regular

2010-05-25T04:07:00.000-07:00

Monkey went home yesterday, and it sucked - hardcore.
I'm going to attempt to get back on track as of today, so you should see a pnt counter tomorrow. I'm pretty miserable right now, missing him like mad. My place feels very empty and quiet, dull. Hopefully our paperwork will not take too much longer, I hate the leaving part of every visit.

Yum-O

2010-05-22T07:31:00.000-07:00

(The Dish: Fried Mushroom Pork chops & rice.)

Usually when I actually get to spend time with my Monkey, I like to try cooking something new for him to try. I love it when he really enjoys my cooking, it's dorky, but I do. My Monkey loves mushrooms, he even refers to himself from time to time as a Hobbit. Why? Because he's a dork. I on the other hand dislike them, and will not eat them. I can stand picking them off though, so usually that's what I do if I make a meal where they are cooked right into the actual food.

Anyway, so this food has NOTHING to do with weight watching, or pnt counting. It's not healthy, it's just Yum-O. The Dish: Fried Mushroom Pork chops & rice. I did have a smaller portion for myself. I had a bowl of rice, with green peas. 1/2 of a pork chop and yeah.. I did have a few crescent rolls.. couldn't help myself, they were yum-O.

Monkey LOVED the dish. He just kept nodding the entire time he was eating it and mumbling the word 'good' from time to time. I'm very happy with the way the food turned out, and will definitely put this dish on mt regular repetoir for Monkey.

We did go Geocaching, so I will try to post some of those pictures later maybe.

Butterflies

2010-05-21T12:36:00.000-07:00

Monkey and I did end up spending an hour or so at the Butterfly Conservatory: Wings of Paradise. We took a ton of pictures, so I'll post a few on here for you to take a look at. There was a little group of school kids also visiting the conservatory, they were pretty cute to watch and listen to.

This Link: Butterflies, will take you to the page that shows you all the different species of butterflies that are in the conservatory. We got pictures of a lot of them, but certainly not all. We saw a lot of the Postman ones, but we never saw one actually land in order to snap our shot.

I cooked dinner last night, chicken Parmesan sandwiches with steamed green beans as the side for both Monkey and I. I also had a spinach salad with honey mustard dressing. It was pretty good, and tonight I'm going to attempt to make a pork chop dish I've never done before. Here's hoping it's good and my Monkey enjoys.

Still not even bothering to attempt counting pnts - it's just too much of a hassle with everything else going on. We went out Geocaching today again, for about 2 - 3 hours. So there was a fair bit of walking involved - but I'm sure not enough to off-set the poor eating. I'm trying to rein it in this weekend, but it's difficult when the last thing you want to do is cook and clean up dishes.

Busy Days

2010-05-20T08:10:00.000-07:00

Haven't had much time to write, but I told you I wouldn't. Things are going great - today Monkey and I are off to meet up with work friends for lunch. We're thinking of going to the Butterfly Conservatory, but haven't decided for sure on that one yet. We did do more Geocaching yesterday, and might again tonight. It looks like it's supposed to rain for the next 3 days, so this might be our last chance.

Eating isn't going well. Yesterday was a bit better, because I decided no eating out - at all. Today we're eating lunch out, but I haven't eaten any breakfast, and have planned a chicken sandwich that my Monkey loves for dinner. So as long as I don't go crazy at Mooses, I should be okay.

Snuck in!

2010-05-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

So this is Monkey; I totally snuck in to her blog so that I could share this with you guys. This is my beautiful woman, acting all dorky after a fun day out shopping, and going to the movies, and playing with kitties at the pet store.

I don't have much time; she'll probably catch me at any second. When she does, she'll post my funny looking picture. That's okay, though, because I totally got her first. I win. And you all know it.

Monkey.

Spending Time Together

2010-05-18T06:05:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lack of posting, etc. It'll probably be that way until next Tuesday when Monkey flys home though. (Suckage) Anyway, haven't done too much to write about, more Geocaching, lots of visiting with family - great time. We played games, ate good food, chatted, etc. It was nice to be able to spend some relaxed time with everyone.

My weight is doing poorly, it always does when I'm away from home, or eating out a fair bit. Which also probably wont stop until the visit is over. Anyway, we have plans for MORE visiting with my Aunt and Mom for lunch today - plus we might stop to see some work friends of mine. So I need to get my ass into the shower and get ready.

Hope you are all enjoying the better weather that has finally decided to arrive!!

Geocaching

2010-05-15T04:55:00.000-07:00

Monkey and I spent most of yesterday shopping and Geocaching - so I thought we could share some photos with all of you! We were very successful and found 4/4 caches we hunted for. If you've never heard of Geocaching - you should definitely check it out. It's fun, interesting and you get to exercise with all the hiking/walking, etc. Pretty much, it's treasure hunting with a GPS. The treasure are containers left behind by people, hidden with log books, trinkets, etc. They can be found all over the world, you'd probably be surprised to find them in your own area.

The pictures I've attached are one of myself, standing beside the spot where we found our last cache. One of My Monkey, all smiles. One of the trails we followed - the weather was perfect for a day outside. It was warm and sunny - almost too warm, but the heavy breeze helped up to stay cool. Lastly is a picture of the wildlife we encountered.. it was a little touch and go for awhile, we were afraid we had been spotted.. (yes I am this dorky...) Actually, the dinosaurs are two of the little toys we traded in two of the caches we found. I collect them all and take pictures to keep track of my finds before I trade again.

Eating has been... alright? Not really, I lie. But I will say this much, we went out for lunch and for the first time in an extrememly long time (maybe ever) I didn't finish what I ordered, I only ate about half. We even went for ice-cream last night, and the cone was HUGE - again, didn't finish it. I think that's pretty good. A large part of my problem with eating stems from over eating, and needing that feeling of being overstuffed. I was pretty impressed with myself that I was able to stop, and without much effort.

Anyway, that's all I got. I need to go get ready for the day as Monkey is waiting, and we have plans to visit with my family today. I've been trying to read all your blogs, hopefully I'll find some time to post in the near future!

iPAD

2010-05-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

This post is from my Monkey's iPad. So it's pretty slow going. I couldn't be bothered to get out of bed. Not even to put out the trash in time for pickup. Yesterday eating was poor due to the Chinese food we ordered for dinner. Hopefully the weather will be nice today so that we can go outside and do some walking along with geocaching. Anyway,I'm not even going to bother with pnt countin yesterday since I have no clue where to start. Talk later!

Today!!!!

2010-05-13T03:17:00.000-07:00

Monkey is arriving today around 4ish!! ~bounces~ I'm so excited, I actually ended up waking up an 1hr earlier this morning. I think every time he visits that happens.. I'm surprised I fell asleep so easily last night, musta been tired.

Yesterday wasn't bad, no exercise though. I've been waking up starving every morning too, which makes the mornings difficult since I hate eating breakfast. (I'm a pnt hoarder, I like larger meals so I keep most until dinner time if I can...)

I'm going to be honest, while Monkey is here visiting I have NO idea if I'll be able to post regularly, or even keep proper track of pnts. I'm hoping I keep it somewhat under control.. (so it's not a good sign I'm already imagining all the dinners out and delicious food I'd like to eat...) but we'll see how it goes. I'm not going to be too hard on myself, it's my vacation, and I haven't seen Monkey in a VERY (I'd like to really put emphasis on that word) long time.

One last thing, I think I got free glasses yesterday!! I'll let you peeps know once I for sure have them in my hot little hands. It was some free give-away online yesterday for the first 500 people. Me and the girls at work all signed on and ordered ourselves a pair... who the frig knows if it's true.. I guess if it doesn't work out and they somehow re-nig on their offer I'll have to return them. Honestly, I've never purchased prescription glasses online before - so they may look completely horrible on me... but they were free... so I thought, meh!

My Monkey is my Sunshine.

2010-05-12T04:02:00.000-07:00

I had a crap day at work yesterday, recently, that's nothing new.
My pnts weren't great, but it wasn't horrible either. I can't believe I even bothered with a lazy 1 Mile Walk of Walk Away the Pounds - but I did, between commercials of my shows.

But then, my Monkey called. He called and told me he might be flying in TWO days earlier than originally planned . . . ~big smiles~ w00t w00t!! I am so excited! He is going to confirm that today, so here's hoping he shows up Thursday, instead of Sunday! ~bounces in excitement~

"Boo" Me Now, why waste time?

2010-05-11T15:08:00.001-07:00

This is going to be a bad post, but I'm irritated today, so there.

I just recently found out about a "issue" that has popped up at the Newmarket OSPCA.

Basically, this is the animal shelter in the town, and from what I have read they have had a horrible outbreak of ringworm through the entire facility. It has infected over 350 animals in the clinic. I don't know how much people actually know about Ringworm, or caring for 350 animals in one building - but I'm guessing it's not very much.

I should probably mention that I love animals, I have in the past been a pet owner, and worked at a vet clinic for 3+ years. I've been around animals pretty much all my life, from person experience, family relatives who farm, work, etc. I'm no stranger to animal life. I also eat meat, and see nothing wrong with that. I have lines which I draw for myself, and lines which I believe should not be passed. But, they are just opinion - I do not claim to know everything.

ANYWAY, back on topic.

I noticed this group going around on FB, talking about stopping the slaughter of the animals. I thought I would share a few posts from people who have joined this group:

"I found 20 ants in my house today and I put them all outside how can you kill Cats n Dogs for Athelits foot? Take me kill me instaead."

"I honked as I drove by. I did my part! I live just up the street, I was wondering what all the activity was"

"they will have less funding now to re-open with so many peope stopping donating to them if they continue euthanizing the animals. it's more cost-effective to save the animals in the long run because people will still donate and be more aware"

"I wonder if they have pets? If so, I hope they get ringworm, so they can kill them too!"

Okay... I am NOT saying that the only choice was to destroy all of these animals. I am certain that a lot of thought went into solutions for this problem. I just do not believe that these people have any clue as to the man power, the funds, the ongoing problems, etc. etc. that would result from a disease outbreak like this. 350 Animals!!!!

I did not see any posts about people donating/fund-raising money to help avoid this problem, I did not see anyone saying "I will adopt an animal with Ringworm!!" and I did not see anyone talking about volunteering their time for the next 3 - 8 weeks to bathe animals with Ringworm - when THEY can catch it, and pass it along as well. Where are all those people? Cause the Newmarket OSPCA would need a huge increase in staff to look after that problem.

Don't tell someone else to find a solution, when you're just going to stand there and say "I am against this, I have no better solution, but I am against this solution." Tell me what YOU'RE gunna do, if you have a fuckin problem with what's happening.

Treatment in pets

1) Because of longer hair shafts in pets, the area of infection and possibly all longer hair of the pet must be clipped to decrease the load of fungal spores clinging to the pet's hair. However, close shaving is usually not done because nicking the skin facilitates further skin infection.

2) Twice-weekly bathing of the pet with diluted lime sulfur dip solution is effective at eradicating fungal spores. This must continue for 3 to 8 weeks.

3) Washing of all hard surfaces with 1:10 household hypochlorite bleach solution is effective in killing spores.

4) Pet hair must be rigorously removed from all surfaces, and then the vacuum cleaner bag (and often the vacuum cleaner itself) discarded when this has been done repeatedly. Removal of all hair is important since spores may survive 12 months or even as long as two years on hair clinging to surfaces.

Better Yesterday, too late for Today...

2010-05-11T03:50:00.000-07:00

So, even though I tried to fix all the damage I'd done to my pnt countin' last week - I didn't make it all the way back to last weeks weight of: 208lbs.

Instead, today I weighed in at: 209.2lbs.

It's my fault, for going WAY off track. But, as you can see I am back on the wagon, I didn't go over last night, and I did a walk. Which reminds me - I did it!!! I finally walked all the way to the Timmy's that waaay down the road from me. I wasn't sure if it was actually close enough to walk to - but it is, and I did it!!

Bad Girl.

2010-05-10T04:18:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm not sure what happened to my self control this weekend, or this week. It bombed, to say the least. I just added up my "over" pnts for the week, and it's looking like 65pnts OVER!!! Gah. Good luck to me at weigh in tomorrow morning.

5 More Days - Monkey's Visit.

I did get my butt up and exercising in a desperate attempt to reverse some of my poor choices. I did 3 Miles of Walk Away the Pounds last night. It's been awhile since I really did the full sets with the DVD - I'm out of practice. It seemed like torture for the first 15 minutes, it took that long just for my muscles to get warmed up and ready to go.

I treated myself to a Smartie McFlurry from McDonalds yesterday - after craving ice cream for days I decided "This can be your dinner". I figured like.. 8ish pnts or something along those lines. So I looked it up in my booklet, 11Pnts!!!! I couldn't believe it. Frig, shoulda thought that one through a little more. I honestly didn't think the serving size was big enough to pack in 11pnts - wrong! Shoulda just had regular yummy ice cream if the stupid McFlurry was gunna be that horrible...

Mommy's Happy Day!!

2010-05-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

((+40 Pnts Yesterday Alone!!! Gaaaaaaaaaaaahhh. Horrible. Way more horrible than I thought, and I'm just trying to recall what I all ate.. I hope that it's not worse than that even.. geeze.. pnts build up fast when you aren't counting correctly.))

I hope that all those Mom's out there are having a great day. I hope they are surrounded with the family or friends who love them, and cannot imagine a world without them. I hope that they know how appreciated all of the time, caring and efforts are.

Food yesterday was HORRIBLE. I have no idea how to even count it. Good luck to me.
This morning I'm okay so far, I just need to hold it together until tonight. How many more hours is that? 12ish? Gah...

If I do okay today and tomorrow, that might off set enough for the Tuesday weigh-in... maybe... give me strength!!!!

Not Home

2010-05-08T12:29:00.000-07:00

I'm visiting the parents this weekend, so needless to say pnt countin is gunna SUCK.
I did poorly yesterday, ten pnts over (i'll post the piccy when I get home).

Today... I have no idea what I'm at already... and we haven't had dinner yet.
Here's hoping I don't trash the entire week in a 48 hour period. Be Strong Self-Control!!

Is a Community whore . . .

2010-05-07T04:04:00.000-07:00

Did you guys catch last nights episode of Community? BEST ONE I've seen ever. I tried not to like this show, but my fiancee kept mentioning it, and there's just nothing else on for me at that time of night. So I caught a couple episodes and reluctantly admitted to him that they weren't so bad. But then, I started watching it more often, now I find myself catching it regularly. Damn that boy, always getting me hooked on TV Shows. Last night was the paintball episode - if you didn't see it, download it from Hulu or something - it rocked. That is of course if you like sarcastic humor, that's slightly dorky.

Not too bad with pnts yesterday, I've checked the scale though - and I need to work a bit harder if I want a loss on Tuesday though. It's pretty much the same every morning. (I know, I shouldn't be stepping on that thing daily.. but it's so tempting!)

I moved recently, and finally received my updated Driver's Licence in the mail yesterday... they choose a different picture or something of me. Or maybe just zoomed RIGHT in on my face from the previous picture? Either way, it looks horrible! I can't believe I have to carry that ugly thing around with me until 2013!! Gross.

Rain equals No Walk Outside

2010-05-06T04:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was another bad day for pnts, 5 over, again. It was a stressful day at work, and for some reason I stayed stressed the entire evening. My Manager completely stressed me out first thing in the morning with a rant, that really had nothing at all to do with me. Then I had this guy emailing me about his file who was... a pain in the ass. Then a 2 hour meeting. Followed by a 1 1/2 hour one on one with another client - which ate right into my lunch hour. What was remaining of my work day consisted of rushing through a ton of work I had been wanting to get to all day and never had found the time.

When I got home, I did some 'Walk Away the Pounds' in my apt., since it was raining/thundering outside. But I just couldn't shake that stressed feeling. Didn't end up falling asleep until late, so I'm very tired this morning. On top of that though, I felt like I had to tie myself down to keep from eating. That's all I wanted to do last night, eat. Eat. Eat. I still have another Quiche in the fridge, and boy was that looking good at about 11pm last night. I forced myself to bed instead, knowing I had already gone over in pnts and didn't want to ruin my wonderful 2lbs loss.

Self-sabotage? Oh, I think so.

Heart Monkeys

2010-05-05T17:41:00.000-07:00

10 Days, and I can hardly wait . . .

2010-05-05T04:11:00.000-07:00

FIVE PNTS OVER! Gah. I know. I actually did a mistake and ate one too many ice creams - and then when I baked my Quiche I couldn't resist having just one slice.. just one. Meh, oh well. It's only 5 pnts, it's not going to make or break me. I'm awake, and ready for a new day of pnt counting today - and really, that's what it's all about. But speaking of my quiche...

So my Fiancee will be here in TEN DAYS and already I'm thinking about it constantly, it's harder to sleep the closer the days become. We have a few things planned for when he is here - such as Geocaching - but nothing major besides spending ALL of our time together. I cannot wait.

I'm really getting into the new show: Parenthood
It stars Erika Christensen (Traffic), Lauren Graham (Gilmore Girls), Dax Shepard (My Name is Earl), and Mae Whitman to name a few. I dunno what it is about the show. It's family, it's happy and sad. It just feels real, and I'm loving it. It covers all these different types of relationships, and their complexities, as well as the difficulties they bring. It's funny, in that homey down-to-earth kinda way.

Anyone else watching it?? Thoughts?

Shoppin' Peach

2010-05-04T14:58:00.000-07:00

1) Christian Louboutin, 2) Bethany Lorelle, 3) Bungalow Bath Body, 4) Fuss Jewelry, 5) Julianne's Atelier, 6) cSoapsNmore, 7) the Little Stitch, 8) Star of the East

2lbs Lost!

2010-05-04T03:51:00.000-07:00

I'm down 2lbs after a week of staying steady on WW Pnt Countin - wicked? Oh I think so.

I'm pretty excited: 208lbs, and will definitely try to hold onto the feeling through this week - common another 2lbs! I'll be back outta the 200's in no time if only I would keep it up.

Not much new to write about. I figured out why maybe the dog was acting up in the last couple days MORE than normal (the barking has always been an issue, but never in the middle of the night). My neighbour has been sick. Yesterday I left to go for a walk, and she yelled out the window for me to come back and take the dog with me. Apparently the dog has been cooped up, and going stir crazy cause her Mommy is sick and in bed. There was no barking last night after our walk. Maybe I'll have to make more of an effort to bring the dog with me at night, wear the thing out a bit so it sleeps. I'm still not wrong about the whole thing being rude, she really needs to control her pet when it's barking and disturbing others.

12 More Days of Waiting . . .

2010-05-03T03:57:00.001-07:00

Morning All! It's MONDAY again, bleh. Back to work. The weekend was okay - Saturday I went a little off course, but Sunday I was right back on track. Tomorrow is the scale, so here's hoping I finally see at least a pound drop off. Just have to behave myself today. ~winks~

Nothing much else to say at the moment, my Fiancee will be visiting in the next 12 days - super excited to see him, it's been awhile. So while he's here I might be MIA, but I'll try to keep up the posting.

Shoppin'

2010-05-02T16:29:00.001-07:00

1) jurgita handmade, 2) ffflowers, 3) bethanylorelle, 4) fuss jewelry, 5) Dashing Etc, 6) star of the east, 7) Big Frozen Melon, 8) Victoria Jackman

Before & After...

2010-05-02T10:02:00.000-07:00

Steph, from Stefi's Weightloss Journey suggested posting a before and after photo of yourself - so that's what I've done. The updated one isn't super recent, but it's close enough. I feel like I've made huge changes - no. I KNOW I have. I was a tight size 28 when I began, and now fit comfortably into size 16. However, when I compare these photos I just don't see that big of a difference.... I know that's insane. But the more I stare, the more similar they look. Gah. I'm freaking myself out.
Something positive... my face isn't as round looking... I noticed that change the most I think. And, as I mentioned.. I love fitting into a regular size of clothing.

May Showers

2010-05-02T04:21:00.001-07:00

Morning everyone, it's early - 7:20am. Bleh. I needed gas for my car (since the little indicator light was already on!!) and I was awake anyway and thought... Tim's line will be empty this early, and so will the pumps. So I dragged myself outta bed, and over to get both. Mmmm... Coffee.

I had a crummy day yesterday, I ended up overeating 8pnts. Which I guess isn't horrible, since what I really wanted to do was order in Chinese Food or something of the like. What's worse is I did NOTHING yesterday. Nothing, literally. The most productive thing I did was vacuum half of my apartment. Lame, I know. I think it was a mixture of my mental state ~winks~ mixed up with the rainy weather.

So, let me ask you lovely blog readers.. I'm having an issue.

I live in a basement apartment, and the couple who rent the upper level of the home have a dog, and she is deaf. Last night, I'm asleep (11:30pm) and suddenly the dog starts barking, non-stop. I can't yell through the walls at her to stop - she can't hear me. No one is home to make her stop (not that that would matter, since they've yet to make her stop when they are). So after five minutes or so, suddenly the garage door opens, and my neighbor arrives home. Whew, I'm thinking. Now I can get back to sleep. So the dog stops, the owner gets ready for bed, and then suddenly the freaking dog starts barking again! And, as I predicted, it doesn't matter if they are home or not... no one stops her. Is this not very rude? Am I crazy? I'd love to say something... but I don't know what, and if I say something, is it just going to be weird between us???

Just Stop It

2010-05-01T05:13:00.001-07:00

I need to stop, and think about what I am doing to myself. I would like someone to explain to me why my first thoughts of the day are put-downs, insults, and negativity towards myself? That same thought process seems to continue throughout the day. If you're anything like me, in a day I'm probably able to spot 100+ things that I do not like about myself, or would like to change. Most of those are physical. Yet actually coming up with the good things seems like a chore.

I know, I've tried. Occasionally a little voice in my head interrupts the insulting one, and says "Woah woah, how about you flip that, and try saying something nice?" Which I do, and for a fleeting moment I am happy I choose to say something nice instead of horrible. I decide right then and there that going forward THAT is how I will speak to myself. And I shit you not, five minutes later I'm back to picking on myself. Why?

Now, perhaps that's just because I have a goldfish memory and forget to be nice. But still, shouldn't that come naturally? Everyone knows that beating yourself down isn't going to do a damn thing except make you feel like crap. Plus, I know for a fact that when I'm feeling very upset I tend to eat - hoping that the feeling of being full somehow will fix the problem. Food is my comfort, I recognize that.

Anyway, I don't want to ramble on too much more, I just had these thoughts the second I woke up this morning and glanced at myself in a mirror.

Friday at last!

2010-04-30T04:13:00.001-07:00

I'm super glad it's FRIDAY! Finally, I could really use two entire days away from the job. I'm actually home this weekend, and was ready to spend it relaxing, doing some cleaning, exercising, etc. Most of all though, I was looking forward to getting outside. It sucks when you sit at your desk all day long through the week, and you can see the sun shinning, but can't get out to enjoy it. Now though, my little weather update on Google is telling me rain, rain, and thunderstorms for BOTH Saturday and Sunday. Suckage. ~pouts~

On a better note, I did great again yesterday - even with eating at McDonalds! I managed to get outside again for a walk, took a different route than the night before and thought for sure I added on like 15 minutes to my time... yeah.. I walked too fast it seems. I did the extra part in pretty much exactly how much time it took me the day before.

I have pretty high hopes about this Tuesday's weigh-in. Here's hoping I don't smuck it up this weekend with poor eating. I sometimes tend to do that over the weekends... but staying home sometimes helps, due to the fact that I almost have no food in my place at any given time. ~winks~ Don't believe me? Just ask the family. They comment, regularly, on how empty my fridge is.

I was thinking of trying something new that I saw on a blog I was visiting: Everyday Foodie posted pictures of Coconut Crusted French Toast. Tell me that doesn't sound super yum. I will be trying to alter it a little bit. I don't have any Stevia in the house, so I will just leave this out entirely. I even might try using WW Bread, in place of the french..... but the french does sound much yummier.. which of course would equal a whole slew of points. If I do decide to make it, I'll post some pictures for you all. Thanks for the great idea Jolene!!

Just Bloggin'

2010-04-29T03:56:00.001-07:00

I did great yesterday I think! A bit of exercise (sure it wasn't an hour, but at least I talked myself into getting out!), stayed well within my point range. I think I did pretty wicked - now I just need to kick out a few months of that and I'd be golden!

First Day

2010-04-28T04:04:00.000-07:00

And I've started! My first post for my new blog, first day of keeping track. It was a little bit of torture staying within points today, and you would have thought it would have been simple. I barely ate anything all day, so it was just the evening I was having issues with.

I drank lots of water, hoping to distract myself from the want to eat.

And oh, how I wanted to eat.

But, I'm determined to be DOWN this coming Tuesday. I refuse to remain in the 210's. I want out, and I want out right this minute. Enough waiting for it to happen, I will force it to happen..... or something like that. ; )

No exercise for me, but that's alright. It was kinda cold out, and frankly I just wasn't in the mood. I will go later this week, it's supposed to be sunny. Maybe I'll take some pictures and share them on here.

Getting Geared Up!

2010-04-27T14:47:00.000-07:00

I'm involved in a little family competition for weight loss - which you can visit by checking out Five Piggies. In the meantime though, I've decided to do my own separate blog where I can track my WW Points, exercise and anything else I feel like writing separate from the competition.

Ideally, I would like to reach my goal weight of around 175lbs. Right now, I'm starting at a solid size 16 - depending on where I'm shopping (sometimes 16 doesn't even fit) and I'd really love to be a 12 or 14. That sounds like a dream.

My starting weight is 210lbs today.

My lowest weight I've ever been was 193lbs - which I desperately crave at this point. After I stopped counting points after my huge loss of 100lbs+ I slowly started creeping back up on the scale, and suddenly I've gained almost 20lbs!!! That just doesn't work for me. I want to be back down, my clothing is starting to get uncomfortable and I refuse, REFUSE to return to where I once was. I like who I am, and want to continue on this path.

So, I will try to post my daily point tracking, and the foods I'm eating. I will also keep putting in more effort for exercising. It's funny how easily you lie to yourself that you're really trying - when you know for a fact you could do more, better, and should be pushing yourself. I'm at the point where the half-hearted attempts are failing, and I need to regain serious control over the situation before I get myself back into a place I hate.

That's it! That's the long and short. So keep in mind what I post for points will always be the previous days information - since I'm not going to post continuously throughout the day.

Wish me Luck!